Dream Baby, My story…. About 11 years ago I had a breast...

My story….

About 11 years ago I had a breast reduction. I was naturally an E cup, which is extremely large for my small frame. Going into surgery I had discussed with the surgeon that I wanted to be a C cup. Unfortunately when I woke afterwards I was extremely upset, the doctor had taken me down to an A cup and hacked me all to hell. I had horrific scars, worse than I could have imagined.

As the years went on I got more involved in modeling and decided that it was best for me to add an implant into my breast and give me more volume. So, about 5 years ago I had a small Saline implant put in bringing me up to about a C cup. I was extremely happy with my new boobs and how it helped my career.

After giving birth to Addison I noticed that some things had changed with my breasts, but I thought it was natural due to pregnancy. I started having horrible pain in my boobs, shoulders, back and abdomen. After lots of testing it came back that the problem was more than likely with my implants. I met with a few plastic surgeons and found out that my implants had shifted and the pocket that held them had stretched or torn. I was able to put and entire hand between my breasts.

So, two months ago I had a procedure to repair the pocket for the implant, place a new silicone implant in and repair some exterior stuff from my reduction. Well, here I am 2 months post surgery and I am in even worse pain than before. It seems as if my body just can’t hold and tolerate the weight of the new implants. I have been sleeping in a recliner since my surgery at a 45 degree angle. I am unable to lay on my back because the implants shift under my arm pit and up towards my clavical bone. When I lean forward it feels like the center of my chest is tearing the implants are about to touch each other. All the muscles and body parts that surround the implant have become over taxed with strain and are beyond painfully sore.

This Wednesday I am having the implants removed for good. The doctor has informed me that he wants to place a smaller implant in, but my gut tells me this is not the best thing. He has warned me that due to how skinny I am ( 107 lbs, which is way to thin for me, but I can’t seem to gain weight due to the stress and pain am in, although I am eating) that I will have little breasts probably an A cup and they will not be how the were before surgery. Well, this isn’t ideal, but being in debilitating pain everyday isn’t ideal either. I thank God that I never had a reaction to the implants that caused problems with my health, more so physical problems that then effected my health. I am looking forward to being free of the pain, worry and fears that implants can have on your body. I can’t wait to buy cute new bras, tops and dresses that I was unable to wear due to my boobs. There is such great fashion out there for girls with small boobs.

Moral of the story: Love who you are just as you are, flaws and all! Health and well being is so much more important than beauty.